Okay, so tech weekend is over. the rain was cold and miserable. i was wet before i even got to the game. good thing jackson gave me his poncho so i would not stay soaking wet. the game company was fun tho. hanging out with the whole group of friends was really fantastic. i love anytime spent with the friends, even when im shivering and sad lol

but this week has been really great. I have had nothing but really happiness lately. giving up on boys for a little while and being me for a while is just really really great. I have just been happier and more willing to be patient and not had so many things to worry about and just time to do stuff that i want to do. I really love this feeling!

in other news, i love halo live: here's why. It allows random strangers to come together and either work together or fight one another. And what's really great is when you find people to talk to. Like tonight, there were two guys on our team from Bama who i made friends with and the whole time we were playing, we were cooperating moves to kill the other team but also talking and having casual conversations. I really loved it. They were sweet. Hopefully we can play again soon. However, i hate the people who are just jerks to everyone for no reason. They should be banned.

I gave people their christmas presents today. So that was really fun! I just got little stockings and painted their names on it and stuffed it with candy along with a card.

Thanksgiving is over.... I have spent most of my break working or being alone in athens. I went to Reidsville, GA. You probably don't know where that is. And i dont doubt it. It's in south georgia, 3.5 hours away from Athens. I only had directions up to a point to get to my grandmothers so for like 22 miles, i just winged it on the directions to make it to her house by landmarks and things i remember. It worked. I didnt get lost. Spent most of Wednesday with my granny, showing her pictures of what I do at school and all my friends. Then my Uncle and cousin came over. And my aunt and dad showed up way later in the night. So we hung out for a while and we were all up til like 1am. I tried to go to bed, but I could not, by any means, sleep. So many cars driving by and birds outside and it was hot. There was also a LOT of stuff on my mind, not so much bad.

Thanksgiving lunch was great. It was nice being with my dad's side of the family and talking and joking around. 

I left at like 6 to get home and sleep in my own bed and get some work done today.

Lately, I have been really very happy. I kinda love it.... no worries, just enjoying life and whatever happens. Its a great feeling, to say the least.

Sharon should be here tonight to sleep over!!!! YAY the tech game tomorrow!!! I hope it doesnt rain, that would be SO miserable..... ugh.

SO, i finished reading twilight.... so so soooooo good. I need to buy the second one. soon..... lol I'm addicted, I'm ashamed to admit. 

Also, I realized that I have currently replaced boys with shopping. I shop a LOT. :) It's still an unhealthy obsession, especially for my wallet. But whatev, i like to look cute. 

Last night i went to the NIT game to watch the Dawgs play. Sat by myself in the front row. It was awesome. Corey saw that I was there and smiled. He texted me after the game to tell me he was glad I came. Oh, and I hate Drake Scott with a fiery passion...... and thats an understatement. He's just an idiot and does really stupid things for the attention (which is usually not even positive attention) and sometimes he gets applauded.... and that sort of behavior should not be rewarded. That's my rant. I freakin hate that kid.... but I still have to retrain myself from not choking him to death, which is definitely how I feel.  :) lol

Okay, so this is my first real post. I dont really have any idea at all what I will put in here, but thats the fun of it right?

So I have been praying a lot lately about what the HECK im gonna do with my life when i graduate. I have successfully put of graduating for another semester, but I can't do that forever. So i've just been hoping something falls in my lap. I really feel the passion to go out into the world and do humanitarian work, whether missionary or not. I really love pouring into people's lives and helping out people who need it. It really sort of uplifts me in some way. So I looked into the Peace Corps and Journeyman programs but a whole 2 year committment is kind of a huge deal for me. I just feel like i would be away forever and miss so much and miss my friends. It was hard even being away from my friends for the 2 months i was in Spain. Soooo that's a really really really huge issue. So for the meantime i'm just trying to figure out what I want to do for next summer and i've been praying over that too. Then my dad tells me about the trips my home church has coming up. And they just seem perfect, but expensive. He also said that my uncles would more than be happy to help pay for the trips especially since they know what it's for. So that is really amazing. Im gonna look into it. :) Both of the trips are 2 weeks long, one to poland (which i fell in love with last time i went) and the other to Uganda. 

Oh, and officially and finally, i have TRULY given the whole "finding a husband" deal completely over to God. I'm through chasing boys and getting my heart broken and just trying so hard to end up with a dead end. Like Franklin said, God wants to fight the battle for us, it's His battle, not mine. And this has been a really fantastic week because it's just been freeing and wonderful. I'm glad i finally came to my senses. I want my future husband to find ME, pursue ME, treat ME like a princess instead of me always running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get his attention, hang out with him, etc etc etc.  So here's to the future of me not caring that I dont have a boyfriend, that I might graduate with no even hint of a guy in my life and being completely and utterly happy with just being.... me. I've never thought about what is best for ME, what I want.... it's always been about finding someone, not being lonely. And im finally okay with ME.

okay. i think that's my rant.

On another note, I shamefully have given into this "twilight" phenomenon. You can judge me if you want. but i have read 300 pages in 2 days..... and barely left my couch but to eat and use the bathroom.

Okay, so here's my first post on this blog. I don't really know what it will all be about, but here's hoping that it will be interesting and someone, if not only myself, will get something out of it. So here goes nothing, my life in slow motion.